I can absolutely relate to this Psalm. God silences me often when I want to speak and when I talk to him about it, it’s usually because my heart is not right. Just because I listen to God and remain silent and try to meditate on God, it’s still hard not to feel anguish. But later I think, if I would’ve spoken, would it have made the situation worse? Sometimes I don’t know, but other times it’s a resounding yes and I praise God for helping me. These are opportunities God is giving me to seek Him about sin in my heart, so that I can repent and ask Him to remove that sin and fill more of Him in my heart. Then maybe the next time I want to respond, I will be allowed to in a loving, humble way.
“I said, “I will watch my ways and keep my tongue from sin; I will put a muzzle on my mouth while in the presence of the wicked.” So I remained utterly silent, not even saying anything good. But my anguish increased; my heart grew hot within me. While I meditated, the fire burned; then I spoke with my tongue: I was silent; I would not open my mouth, for you are the one who has done this.” -Psalm 39:1-3, 9 NIV